this is close to being untenable
Have been on new meds for a week, while slowly coming off others. Any kind of medication that directly impacts your brain chemistry (which would be most of them, and particularly those prescribed for migraine prevention), is physically addictive, in that you have to come off them slowly and deal with a host of strange side effects. For me, I have had no appetite but an insatiable need for caffeine in order to keep from being a zombie. I can’t think of the right word at times, and stand in front of the class visibly frustrated as I rack my brain for the word I know is there.
But here’s the weirdest part. I can only concentrate well in short bursts — which means sustained reading and writing are out right now. And for me, that’s as serious as a heart attack. It’s not that I’m hyper or, really, that I am sedated — just that it is difficult to see and follow language. I know I am about at the end of my timespan for this post because I am struggling to think of the words to finish it. I haven’t really gotten lost in a book since my birthday, weeks ago. So weird, the things we can now do to ourselves with medication…