19th Jul 2006
hitting the wall
I definitely think I’m hitting the wall. I’ve been teaching so much I can’t tell what I’ve covered in one class as opposed to the other, which would be fine if they were the same class but they aren’t –
Yesterday, instead of reading and commenting on the growing stacks of papers I laid on the living room floor and read Middlemarch, cause I have only read it once and I keep coming across references to it in different things I’ve been reading –
I keep thinking, “So what if I don’t get tenure. Isn’t there an organic food co-op in Taos that needs someone to help stock the shelves and we can live off the grid for a while?? –
omg, next month I am teaching *every night* for five hours –
Went to the allergist who injected many many things under my skin to find out that I am allergic to mold, most pollens, dust mites (?!?!), lettuce (wtf?), celery — ok whatever, and coffee (!!)!)!)!)!!)! –
I need a long vacation. A road trip in my beloved Stella Blue to someplace dusty and Big Sky, with low humidity and no cell phones…..
oh.my.god. allergic to coffee? decaf too? you poor thing… stock up on black tea!
Yikes! now I feel guilty! I pushed really hard to have this class offered this summer, sorry. If it’s any consolation, am totally enjoying the class, you have brought literature I would not have pursued to me and I am and continue to learn much, thanks.
Cathrine — I am really excited to be teaching the class; I just took on too much on top of it. I think teaching the adol lit class has been one of the best parts of my summer. Sorry — the last thing I wanted to do was to make you think that teaching this class was a bad part of the summer. : ( I really like it very much — it keeps me thinking. I am just in need of a mini-break.
Dr. C